All my spoons are in all the right places, if you know what I'm talkin' about...
Absolutely agree with you. Some people aren’t meant to be together, and that’s okay! Of course you still deserve nothing less than what you deserve and I say HELL YEAH to you for going out and getting exactly what you want out of life. Everyone’s struggle with Chronic Illness is different, some worse than others, and we all need to try to live to the fullest that we are capable. It sounds like you are doing exactly that, so you’ll wind up attracting someone who sees that in you and appreciates it.
My love, I cannot relate to this enough. Honestly, there is a blog I love called “the care partner” written by a man who is in love with a woman suffering from chronic illness. His writing has actually helped me be more sympathetic to their perspective. As hard as our lives are, the lives of our partners are also very, very, hard. And as much as we want love to be enough, it often is not. And even though that sucks for us, it’s actually not unreasonable for them to want a relationship that is less stressful.
I have lost loves because I knew and they knew that they couldn’t handle my hard times and my lower life expectancy. They deserve someone that they are better suited for, just as I deserve someone who I am better suited for.
There ARE people out there who are able to handle our disease. Don’t give up hope. They are out there, I promise you. That doesn’t make your ex a bad person, it makes them the wrong person for you.
"Which way do you WANT to go? !"
"Yes! Which way!"
"She chose DOWN?! SHE CHOSE DOWN!"
Put off doing most things necessary to be a functioning human being on bad days.
Wake up on a good day.
Do everything that you should have done all those other days and play ultimate catch up.
Break yourself and return to step one.